In other news

my colonoscopy showed only some internal hemmorhoids, which were no doubt responsible for the bleeding. Not going to do anything about them because they don't hurt or anything. The worst part of the procedure was having to drink this nasty colon-cleansing solution the day before, and you have to drink a freakin' gallon of it, too. Oh yeah, cramps for a few hours after the procedure, too.

Hey, I'm gonna be one of the models for the 2006 Hotties of Harm Red. calendar! I get to strip for the camera in 3 weeks! Since it's proven itself as a successful fund-raiser, it's being much more seriously organized this year. There are actual "positions" in the calendar organization now (all volunteer), like "press liason" and "photographer's assistant." And we're going to have a big kick-off "event" when the calendar comes out in December. Yay harm reduction!

kinksters

But the thing I think I wanted to get across to the trainees was that all kinds of people are into kink, it's not just scary Nazi wannabes with unresolved potty training issues. The folks I've met in the kink community are just the nicest most reasonable people you could want to meet. Which kind of makes sense if you think about it-- their main ideology is "sex-positivity," so to be sex positive, you kinda tend to be positive in general. At least that's my observation. Actually they tend to be kinda nerdy, on the intellectual side. Spend too much time in front of the computer.

I also showed the movie, which I got compliments on, but maybe they were just being nice.

S&M

A week later and I still have bruises on my breasts. It was pretty funny, when I told Winston about it, he got all grim and made me promise I wouldn't get into S&M. Like I was Anakin being lured over to the Dark Side. Yes, I believe in the endorphin rush from being smacked around, cut, and electrocuted, but basically, it's just too much trouble for the pay-off (the rush is very subtle), and a big part of it is power play, dominance and submission, you're a top or a bottom (a few are switches). I'm so not into that. It's appealing because there's a lot of touching going on. Basically, I just want to be hugged.

Wow

you're a lot braver than me. I could never do something like that. Pain AND embarassment at the same time? Whoa.

Hullooooo!

Can't eat today, because tomorrow I have my very first colonoscopy! A new adventure! The GI doc said it was most likely a hemorrhoid from the bike ride and the sitting on the train, but that he'd like to do the scope just to be sure. Cool-o!

In other matters, the "Non-vanilla Sex/Queer Issues" class I taught this past weekend was a rousing success, not because of anything i did, but because of the awesome speakers I had: a couple from the local S&M group. They gave a nice talk about BDSM, then gave an even nicer audience participation demo. One chick enjoyed a nice ass-caning. Several of us got into needle play; I had 6 needles skewering my breasts, to which electricity was applied via a taser-like device. Felt like a buzz-saw was ripping my flesh. Double cool-o!

Other than that, been startin' in on the applications again. Oh so dreary. But I'm determined to get into some kind of program somewhere this year. Dammit.

kinda embarrassed

by the ultra low res of the movie, so I'll try to post a higher res version sometime in the next couple of days. I'm thinking of showing it this Saturday as part of the Queer Issues/Non-Vanilla Sex class I'm teaching, so if you do watch it, tell me what you think. I'm also trying to get a couple of BDSM folks to come in and give a demo, but I'm having a hard time getting a commitment. Hey, I've done my part for alt.sex education: 3 weeks ago I was the guest speaker for trans issues at the Institute for Advanced Study of Human Sexuality's summer seminar (they got me through SFSI). Apparently I was a hit, folks (the participants are primarily therapists from around the country) came up to give me hugs afterwards. They said they definitely want me back next year. And I got $25 honorarium! Woo-hoo!

hey

i'm sorry. i can't believe it's been... two months. jeez.

very interesting stuff from dana and diane. sorry to hear about yv.

anyway.

i'll try to download the movie.

wow

no one but me has posted since May. There's a distinct echo in here! Anyhoo, so how's Yvan doing these days? On a related personal note, two days ago, I took a crap and a bunch of blood came out. So now I gotta call the doc Monday, prolly have to get a colonoscopy, god knows what they'll find. Bummer. I'm hoping it's maybe a hemmhoroid, since the day I pooped blood I had just finished riding my bike 275 miles from Albuquerque to El Paso (which is where I am right now, hanging with the Wellses). I survived it remarkably well considering every day temperatures topped 100 degrees. Crispy!